Mother’s Day

Happy Mother’s Day! If you are a mother, you deserve to be celebrated today! I have been a mother since 2005. I don’t remember my first Mother’s day, honestly some day just run into one another. This year I’m celebrating with both my beautiful girls.

PicsArt_05-13-09.53.48I wasn’t entirely sure I ever wanted to be a mother. I was raised by a single mom, I saw how hard she worked and I knew I wanted different things in life than doing the daily grind. I’m so thankful for my mother, she has been such a rock in my life, through all my ups and downs. I wasn’t always the easiest kid to get along with, but she was such a great role model.

I became a mother pretty young, ripe age of 19. I couldn’t believe it. I know I wasn’t ready, but I’ve always been a little bit more mature than others my age. I had no choice but to stay that way.

Samantha at age 3

When I delivered my oldest daughter, I was shocked, elated, blessed, surprised, happy,  loved and just had a whirl wind of emotions. It was so amazing and lovely. I never knew how much you could love somebody, until that moment. She is the best thing that has ever happened to me, especially at the age of 19. Now fast forward to her being 12, she is still such a blessing and joy. We don’t always get along, but god I love that girl.

I knew I wanted more children someday, it just didn’t seem like it was going to happen. When my husband and I met, Samantha was already 6 years old. That seemed like such a large gap for any future children, and there was no way we were having a kid so soon. Once we were married and felt settled, we decided to start trying and after 9 months, got pregnant with our little one.

Charlotte 1 day old

When I delivered our daughter, it was the most amazing, beautiful, crazy, love at first sight feeling all over again. I couldn’t believe the amount of love I felt for this little girl. It felt like a crazy emotional roller coaster from the moment I got pregnant, to this long awaited delivery of this baby. Now, I’m a mom of two girls. Two beautiful, amazing little girls.

My two beautiful girls

Seeing my two girls together soon after her delivery, was a whole new wave of emotion. I love both of my girls and even though being a mother is absolutely the most terrifying, emotional and tiring job I will ever have, I couldn’t imagine my life any other way.

Mothering is tiring, as fuck. It is exhausting, relentless at times. Someday’s I feel like I’m spent by 9am! I’m physically exhausted after a day of chores, nursing my little one and driving the older one to and from everything but when they smile at me, I melt and I’m thankful for everything about them. Parenting a newborn and a tween, man it’s a trip and they aren’t always thankful for me or appreciative BUT I couldn’t imagine doing anything else with my life.

Happy Mother’s Day, I hope you are blessed with someone to do the laundry for you today!